Right now I'm in between two tensions that I can't seem to shake. One on hand, I absolutely love where we are as a church. It seems like people get it, there's genuine community, people willing to serve and make sacrifices. On the other hand, I wish there were more people around. We've made some great relationships, but I'm not seeing the throngs of people coming on board that I want to see.
I want to try to diagnose a problem, but I'm not even sure there is a problem. Actually, I'm fairly confident there's not one. And yet the tension remains. Good tension - a desire to see people changed and willing to change others? Or bad tension - a numbers game played by my lack of faith? Don't really know.
I'm not even certain this tension will ever go away. And I'm not sure if that's good or bad. Some days it's what makes me get out of bed, and other days it begs me to stay there.
My wife is two months away from having another little girl. I want her here now, but know if she were to come, she wouldn't be healthy. I just need to get out of my head.
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Be careful what you pray for! Patience is something that God seems all to willing to try and teach me when I say I need more of it! :-)
ReplyDeleteOkay well patience, as you know already, isn't something "I" can give encouraging words about as I do not have any! :o) But I can say that I do truly believe good things come to those who wait and honestly Kyle, I know you and Erika both are destined for some serious "Greatness" and I am just thankful that Chris and I can be by your sides for the experience.
ReplyDeleteOh yeah and if you think you can't wait for your little girl to arrive, just imagine how mommy feels, LOL!
Can I take a moment to coach you a little? HA!!!!
ReplyDeleteGod's got to get us all ready for the numbers that are coming. Too many churches are not prepared, we will be. :)